life without sadie, day 4
February 25, 2011 at 1:50 am 2 comments
dear sadie,
today was the first day i felt like we made the right decision. today was the first time i was able to tell someone about your death and not cry. i felt the sun on my neck. i heard the birds singing and wasn’t envious.
i still can’t bring myself to wash your coat, so i know it’s not over. and i still had cheese curls and junior mints for lunch. and a glass of wine before dinner. i know you would approve: you loved self-indulgence.
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Entry filed under: life without sadie. Tags: dog, euthenasia, grieving, loss, sadie.
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Leigh Bhe | February 25, 2011 at 7:26 am
Amy…
I have been reading your journey, and you are doing a very very good job. It is hard to grieve, and just work through the process. Don’t get upset if you are doing great and then suddenly you have that one incredibly sad day, it will happen. You were a great Mama to Sadie and she was a lucky pup for sure.
My sister had a lab, Casey, who saw her through SO much. He was just her buddy, and he was just a cool dog. She lost him when he was only 8, and it was so so so difficult. But, she has gotten through it, and you will too.
Hang in there, and self indulgence is seriously the best.
Leigh