life without sadie, day 3

February 24, 2011 at 1:05 am 3 comments

dear sadie,

today seems to be going better (so far at least). i am optimistic enough to put on mascara; we’ll see how long that lasts.

the laundry and other tasks are piling up around here, as they just seem so inconsequential. i still can’t bring myself to wash your coat, which looks empty without you in it: a red quilted shell. i feel empty too, like a little space has been carved out inside my heart and i’m not sure how to fill it. the silence is overwhelming.

on a brighter note, we’re going to the mountains this weekend. do you remember the mountains? i remember how you would bound through the snow like a maniacal deer, confused about why your paws were so cold and the world was so blindingly white. or maybe you were happy. it was always so hard to tell.

i hope that wherever you are now, you are happy. it’s all i ever wanted for you, of course, but now it seems even more important.



to read my next letter to sadie, click here

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  • 1. life without sadie, day 2 « dogwood & poppy  |  February 24, 2011 at 1:07 am

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  • 3. kislily25  |  February 24, 2011 at 11:29 pm

    I am soooo sad reading your blogs Amy, but I am glad you are writing out your feelings. You have so many great memories of your times with Sadie and it’s so nice to remember them with you.

    Glad you and J are going to get out of Riverside and enjoy the mountains. That will be good for your heart and soul.

    Love, Kirsten


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